exhausted and somewhat drained

Long day. Busy. But it's good to be busy....then you can't think as much. I still felt slightly off at work today.

Gosh...last night seems like it happened longer ago. My body is drained in entirety, and my soul is definitely tired. So, if this seems choppy, that's why.

I got food for me and my parents after work. They are moving. I will never again see my house that I lived in since I was 10, or my shoninger piano. This is the home where I became who I am today. It's so strange to think it's no longer there for me to go to. More than anything though.....I'm REALLY sad that my parents aren't going to live as close. I know I will get over this, but lately it has been so nice to see them at least once a week and to have dinner with them. I love talking with my mom and it's way easier to talk with her in person than on the phone. I love my daddy's hugs! I'm going to miss those.

I guess it's just a part of growing up.....something which I feel I had to do way too fast sometimes. But my friend Elizabeth Morris said today that we are women of ambition. We set out to complete a goal and we do it....fast! Hahahaha.....some goals aren't that easy though. That's when we play tug-of-war with God and think that we should have something sooner or later. I know that I'm supposed to do something more...I just can't seem to figure it out yet. I've been thinking a ton about singing. I know I've said that I don't ever want to become famous, but then again....isn't singing in front of a crown some sort of fame anyway? I know I would really love something like that. At the same time I think about finding some kind of dental group that goes to third world countries and provides dental treatment.....or even just a simple "regular" mission trip.

Ugh......I'm to tired to be thinking like this..........................it just makes me more restless....which is how I have been for the last week. Blah. I'm going to go eat dinner now....cold cereal. Yup, because I have no energy to make myself food.

Oh! And choir practice went well tonight. I sang hard, and loud. I felt really strong in my solo too...even though I had no monitor :) It will be awesome this Sunday.